hiya @Gma11 welcome to the forums! really appreciate you trusting us with your story. 

i can't imagine how difficult this must've been for you, it's super tricky when the meds that help up also have side effects that end up hurting us in a different way. although i don't have lived experience in this area, i have heard stories similar to yours in this community so i'm sure others will be able to sit with you and share their experiences to - you're definitely not alone here. 

it takes so much strength to reach out, and i'm so so glad that you did. i look forward to connecting with you and listening to your journey. 💙

i also wanted to let you know that i've edited medication names and specific kgs from this post as it's against our community guidelines - you're absolutely welcome to share your experiences, but we do ask that everyone 'limit detailed descriptions', as there are members with eating disorders and/or other vulnerabilities that may be impacted by those specific details. totally understand that being new, it's hard to know this stuff so i thought i'd just explain it to you here so you're not left confused about the edits. feel free to reach out if you have any other questions 😊