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Doldip15
Senior Contributor

Feeling alone

I haven’t been on here for a while as too overwhelming alone! Find it hard to express the reality of finding you’ve moved to a new city on the promise of your daughter helping only to find she stand and verbally abuses you for 1/2 hour straight! Her husband wants your home but will put a boxable on the property he purchases with the proceeds of your sale! Your sons family think your a strange old lady who can’t stand upright or walk without help so they have nothing to do with you and I was stupid enough to loan my car to my youngest daughter to move her possessions into storage because of DV only to never get it back, subsequently stolen, vandalised and written off! Is there anything worth looking forward to? The sun doesn’t even shine! Have progressive Lupus now and spend time wondering what time I have left anyway? No medical doctor has bothered explaining what this means in terms of what is happening to my body, mind, anything? Dr Google a little scary! Isolated at home as poor as the proverbial church mouse! Asking charities for help- you could say useless but I would say humiliating when the volunteer who brings a food voucher tells you your 5 years younger than she is, hold a garage sale and sell some of your possessions, and don’t ring us again for 3 months! 
Lifeline generously provided a food parcel which does not take  into account a special diet for someone who’s had 6 abdominal surgeries and is on a low fiber diet - against gov food regulations, so can eat 2 things in food hamper and my daughter took remainder! 
I simply fail to get help! No one helps with medication and the cost of mine has gone up to $250 a month! I feel like I’m drowning in poverty and isolation! Gave Grandson a home because he was homeless and know he was unmedicated and diagnosed Bipolar, did not take into account the fact that his girlfriend happily triggers his ASD meltdowns and psychosis at times causing unbelievable violent behaviour that made it necessary for me to call police to stop him harming her more than once! [edited by moderator] My home has been invaded by multiple police! I’m due in court again tomorrow! I am at a loss to know how to cope I’m so tired! At least I’ll get a free cup of tea! Any compensation? I doubt it?

and I won’t even touch on the injustice and unfairness of homeless services! I’ve been trying to keep my daughter and family off streets and have basically lost all my money supporting them when support services dropped out! Main reason seemingly - she looks like a drug addict! Why - she has severe ADHD and a medical condition that causes muscle spasm, twitching, loss of muscle control, not to mention severe pain but of course why look beyond the obvious? You look like an addict, therefore you are an addict so we won’t deal with you. I can’t help financially any more so living on the street a very real risk?

I’ll stop because I am making myself feel worse! I’ll find something creative to do before I fall asleep on the table top!

cheers to all

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rav3n
Peer Support Worker

Re: Feeling alone

hey there @Doldip15

 

firstly- wow. you've gone through so much, and i can hear how painful, overwhelming and exhausting this has all been for you so far. i'm so sorry you've had to deal with this.

 

Dr Google can be scary to rely on... and i'm shocked to hear that your GP hasn't shared information about Lupus with you! are you seeing your GP soon? i really do hope you're given more answers. and juggling the violent behaviours and taking care of your family, i can't imagine how tiring it must be to have all that on your plate. 

 

sending you gentle hugs, we're here for you 💙