Unsure about how I'm doing ~ meds change and other big changes

[BipolarPenguin]

Hi, it's been a while since I posted here! I have been pretty good, stable as well and I've made friends, and met new colleagues through volunteering. 

Recently though, I'm a bit worried, as tonight I did a bunch of cleaning and tidying up in my bedroom before "bed" (I haven't gone to bed yet!). 

I typically tidy up or make messes in the efforts towards tidying up when I'm a little manic.

The other day, a tree that has been outside my window for the last year and a half, got removed.

So now I have more light coming into my room and no tree branches squeaking up against my window....

.... but the big change has kind of got to me?? I feel like it shouldn't have hit this hard but I really love birds, especially suburban ones, and they will have less places to sleep and perch with the tree gone.

I also had a med change this week: from taking a 'mood stabiliser' twice a day to ceasing the med all together as under the PBS it is not indicated for bipolar, according to not my usual GP.

I'm really concerned about whether this swing in energy and mood is to do with the med change?

My old psychiatrists said it is a mood stabiliser.... so maybe that's why my mood is feeling unstable?

I also take an antipsychotic so that should keep me from going psychotic but we'll see I guess. I hope nothing goes wrong but I think I might be doing too much and worrying/thinking too much too.

Do you think I'll be alright? Should I talk to my doctor about all this? Considering calling them later (this morning haha)

I have emailed my old psychologist and asked for a telehealth consult so hopefully that happens too.

This could be just hypomania... right? (I hope)

[ElephantEar3]

For what its worth @BipolarPenguin,

I think you are doing all the right things. Calling your doctor and talking to them about how you're feeling is a great idea and so is getting in touch with your specialists.

Med changes can be a time of really big feelings so good to get some support.

[GonePirate]

Ahoy there, 

riding the medigoround up and down the same song keeps playing on an endless loop.

i hear ya and it's a tough one.

I have a bipolar diagnosis and for the last couple years been taking a non pbs medication dunno if we can name them on here but yeh I have to pay more and it's not on PBS for bipolar 

it's an anti epileptic medication that has mood stabilising effects.

if you are concerned about this try get an appointment with your regular GP as they know why you are on it better than a rando looking at it going huh?

and for the birds awwww man I love the birds too 

you can make them a little bird house

or buy one 

or better yeh a little bird feeder even a plate on a bush, barrel, branch or stump where that tree was

spribkle some bird seed and watch them come and let them know it can still be a place for them to go

[Appleblossom]

Metoo re the birds @GonePirate @BipolarPenguin @ElephantEar3 

They can be good teachers... especially regarding intensity...

Loud Cacophony of a swarm....

Screech of a cockatoo....

Dove warble....

Pigeon coo....

Bell birds....

I have

Immediate family with Bipolar and other diagnoses with psychoses. Oops can that phrase count as rap?

Energy and mood fluctuations are a normal part of Life. Yes med changes will have impact... But I don't believe the pharma marketing about so called "anti psychotics" any more. I bin watching the psycho/ mental health space since 1970. Don't let the fear of maybe I am mad take too strong a hold...titrate up the smallest amount if needed. There are health professionals looking at Deprescibing these days. Eg Joseph Witt-doering.

Good luck. Maybe I have Bipolar mixed state or Schizaffective disorder.... My shrink is at least honest enough to admit he doesn't know. Yes I am still on miniscule amount of an antipsychotic... To maintain stability for other family member. 

Take care. Live and love yourself in a mature manner. Good luck