I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m so sorry @Jynx. I didn’t realise you lost your pop. That’s so very hard. That’s a shame you slept through. I’m sure there will be a recording somewhere. 

Perfectly good reason to postpone your inspection. I was actually thinking of you today as I was scrubbing my house. I still have to hose of the back verandah but the rain put a stop to that. I’ll do it later and I still have to clean the front entrance but I need an outdoor broom for that and I don’t have one. Other than that my house is spotless! I will re-clean the kitchen, sweep, vacuum and wash the floors tomorrow just before my friend gets here. So I’m basically done. That massive impossible list got done! 

It’s so tough, it’s a massive mess of a roller coaster. I just wish it was one thing not a combination of everything. One thing I think I could deal with. My psych is amazing. She is an absolute gem. 

I did stand out in it but it was very cold, the temperature dropped a lot and suddenly. 

Im surprised to see you today but I’m very happy about it! 😛 

Im actually feeling a little tired at the moment for the first time in a little while. I mean sleep tired. Physically I’m exhausted. 

How are you? How are you coping with the loss of your pop? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 hehe yep I am helping out whilst tyme is away! 

Thank you hun. I am feeling... I dunno, weird I guess. I didn't really have a close relationship with my Pop, so my biggest feelings are for my dad, who is dealing with so much already (late stage Parkinson's). Thank you for your support hun, and for thinking of me during your cleaning escapades! Well done on clearing 'the big list' 💜

Are you getting excited about your friend arriving tomorrow? Physical tired sounds about right hey! Hope you can get some solid snoozles in this evening. What are you up to this arvo?

[Captain24]

I thought so @Jynx. I miss @tyme but so happy to see you!!! 

I get that, the feeling for your dad more than yourself. I’m glad you are kinda ok about it.

I was pops girl, I was his favourite not that I realised that at the time. 

It was a mammoth effort but I got there, well except for the back verandah but it is raining still. I’ll just do it tomorrow. Of course I thought of you, we were in it together! 

I am excited but I’m also a little unsure. I will have someone around 24/7 for a couple of days. I don’t get downtime. It’s really overwhelming. 

I’ve been physically exhausted for a while now but keep pushing past it, the sleep tired I thought was good so I tried to have a nap to help catch up on sleep and hopefully slow this mania down but once I got into bed I was wide awake. I’m fighting a losing battle. It’s only going to get worse the less sleep I have. This is all leading to a disaster that I need to try and be ready for

[Shaz51]

awww so sorry @Jynx , sending you lots of tender hugs my awesome friend xoxo