Grief & loss - may be triggering

[Adge]

Yep, I can't expect to catch any fish when I'm not casting a line (fishing)...

Get back on that horse (a few people said)...

Except that the horse had bolted away, & I have to catch it first...

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[Faith-and-Hope]

Yeah ..... well ..... mine has bolted too ...... which is why I am here, walking along with you, looking for lost horses .......

😏

[Appleblossom]

With the horses gone for now, maybe we can get a piggy back on a jumpin frog .. ?? in order to ride out our storms and losses ...

Anybody with a "shrink me" potion ?

@Adge @Faith-and-Hope 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Here y’go @Appleblossom ...... 🤗💕

[Appleblossom]

@Faith-and-Hope Words desert me.

Thank you for journeying into my silly escapism ....

Hope @Adge likes it too.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hoping to cheer you up a little @Adge ..... not intending to make light of your feelings at all ..... just being clowning buddies a little bit.

💕

[Former-Member]

So sorry about your lutino 🐤 peachface @Adge 😞 We do get attached to them. You have a lot of support here, hope it helps. Hang in there. I think of you often ❤❤❤

[Adge]

Clowning buddies is great @Faith-and-Hope

Piggy-backing on a giant jumping frog sounds fun @Appleblossom

Just back from evening night work training session (4 hours). 7pm already, so tired, bed-time soon.

I'm not confident with night driving (I haven't done any in years) - thankfully there was still a tiny bit of daylight left, most of the way.

Thanks @Former-Member Rainbow was the last bird survivor from when I was married (together). All my other birds are more recent.

I think of you too.

Sorry I have so much trouble thinking clearly enough to write anything, or to type when I'm this tired.

Maybe the Dyslexia has something to do with that too, when it's hard to get the letters (typed) to come out right - even though I'm a good touch-typist.

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[Adge]

Some fun escapism is always good...

I'm always afraid that I will be misunderstood (or offend someone), when I try to make jokes...

eg about horses having bolted.

I'm glad you got it...

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I’ve only been earning $450 per week for many months now - yet somehow I did not even re-qualify for a Low Income Health Care Card, when I went to re-apply. That only gives subscription discounts, it is not any form of pension or income.

I haven’t had any disposable income or capacity to save for over 6 years. In fact, since I left horticulture & went back into Disabilities. I left the hort/gardening job because I was physically assaulted at work, & subjected to on-going harrassment & intimidation - I had to file a police report, yet no action was taken.

My psych somehow thought that I could pay $500 for a private legal consult, to get advice on disputing Mum having kept the money from Dad's estate. Because they were separated, not together for 8 years before Dad died.

Yet that amount is more than my entire week’s wages – it’s impossible, that’s why I could only consider subsidised services. Yet I was turned away by the subsidised legal services that I contacted.

That’s why it’s been so disempowering. There is no room to move, all repairs to my house are unaffordable - & have been on-hold (postponed) for the past several years.

I was told to grieve the loss of the promised money from Dad's estate, & Mum's heartless broken promise (of 1/4 each, amongst 4 siblings).

Yet being told to simply grieve the loss, & to pressumably simply accept being ripped off - is disempowering in itself. Mum's actions are an insult to Dad's memory (& legacy).

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