Hello, StanD💜🖤🤎

[tyme]

Hope you're okay @StanD ! 🙂

[StanD]

Hello @tyme @Shaz51 @StuF @TAB @Appleblossom 

Thankyou all for replying on my thread, & I love the chill vibe u have all created.

YONKS... Donkey years.... @tyme thankyou for visiting it is great. I wish I can say I am ok - & I am

Also, I not okay at all 

Couple last days I have this new feeling in my head.

I lost my child, cat Lauren a few weeks ago. I am still processing. It feels absence 

It difficult looking after other 2. I know they are sad. I need to be mum. 

It's very difficult. I experience days of feeling suicidal. I am safe. I can call CAT - ironic 

It is grief. I will never see that little furball again in this life. I can see her in my head & definitely in my heart.

I am happy I got to meet her❤️

...& I recon, peri-meno 

I feel different 

I don't know how explain 

[StanD]

It's okay if laughing at me. I am not stupid, I am only drawn that way 

I am not directing that comment at anyone in particular. Only expressing myself 

Heya @StuF thanku for message. Idk y you and I not spoken hardly at all really, - I am always happy to see you.

I am - best way describe - maybe, I feel like I am in eye of tornado.

There is so much stresses.

I am  on cute little sail boat

The surface is calm 

Underneath me currents crash violently. It never stops.

I think sail ⛵ is blue 💙 & no. 024 on side in white block writing.

So , yeh.

How s it going?

[TAB]

thats funny how pets passing can have dift effect depending how the rest of Life going.

The amt of time spent worrying about poor cuty cat that eats and sleeps here and leaves everynight sometimes for days ,esp in regard to working in another place that would have to move to. then twigged prob wasnt cat I was worried about so much as I was depressed and cat was part of comfort zone. anyhoo , will face that puzzle again insome form this wednesday. cat dropped in on me, I didnt got buy it or whatever. its local, I think it may have other 'owners' I would get someone to feed it anyways.

i backed out of 90k job for stray cat. Mad. I could have been up and running and experienced in job by now lol 

Friend who lives in another city lost job recently; pays exorbitant rent. they cant find work. they are applying for things would not have even thought about amonth ago and still getting nowhere. so they are possibly going to be homeless soon and i am knocking back $1700 a week cos worried about stray cat got attached to and losing pension concessions lol ... That's Nuts... @StanD 

[StuF]

Hey @StanD 

Always good  to see you!

Sorry to hear about Lauren...they are family

I hope your sail boat stays afloat! There will always be currents and storms...but I hope the overall trend is toward calmer seas

I'm going ok thanks. Working, keeping out of mischief (mostly! lol)...need something to aim for, but I have few complaints

[Shaz51]

Hello and hugs 🫂 @StanD 😊

[Appleblossom]

Hey @StanD 

Good to hear from you again. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable and open when I share on here.... Hard but real.

Grieving animals has been important in my life. We let a couple years go between getting our new cats. They have given much back but we just needed time to pass so we could totally love our new cats. We compare a little with the old ones but it was the right thing for us to wait. Each person and animal is different. You do you. 

Great to see you around.

Apple 🍎 

[StanD]

Too much love and kindness from everyone 💕💕💕💕💕💕🤠

I feel like I am back on track 

I bloody cannot send you enough gratitude.

Apple - yes, so personal,. ......where will it land?

I am so lucky to have you all.

I did not have heaps of support irl, I feel like, you have helped me give her the goodbye, she really deserves. Coz she was awesome cat.

I sorry I cannot reply further. I loved reading everything, esp my hugs @Shaz51 😊 and returning mind hugs to all xx 

@Appleblossom @Shaz51 @StuF @TAB 

I got to get ready to go out chemist bla ..

...

Irly hope I can get real strength of focusing on calm so it become natural state again.

I think I can.

[Shaz51]

We are here for you my awesome @StanD 

And here for @Appleblossom , @StuF , @TAB , @Jynx too 

[Jynx]

Gotchu @StanD 😁 Here if you wanna chat at all!! 

Thanks for tag @Shaz51 💜