I can’t cope

[rav3n]

sure thing @Captain24 i'll be there 💙

haha and i'm guessing you barely interact with those other people? "I mind my own business not everyone else’s" i love that you said this, completely agree with ya. 

yesss fingers crossed it's not as cold tonight either!! 

[Captain24]

They talk about people all the time and I have no idea who they are. @rav3n. They assume stuff about people whether it be true or not. Dad broke up a marriage by being nosy. He asked a guy at his work what his wife was studying at TAFE because her car was there all the time. Turns out she was having an affair. 

I’ve woken up really tired and not feeling safe at all. I don’t want to go to work. But I have to. I don’t know how I’m going to do it. 

[AuntGlow]

Hi @Captain24, nice seeing your name pop up today. You know, I was thinking, how would you feel about exploring reaching out to your friend today about how you're feeling? I just wonder what that might feel like for you to know it's okay to reach out and someone when you're needing support. ☺️💛

In the meantime, would giving Jett and Pixie a cuddle help at all? (If they aren't being too sassy today...)

[Captain24]

I don’t have time @AuntGlow I leave for work in 15 minutes. Pix and Jett aren’t here they are at my mums being babysat. 

[rav3n]

woahhh sounds like your parents missed their callings to be a private detective or something! @Captain24 i've got aunt's that talk like that too, they always have a new story to gossip about... wish they weren't so judgemental. 

i'm so sorry to hear that Cap, having those feelings weigh on you before work sounds tough. is there anything that can keep you safe in the next few mins? maybe putting on some music/calming sounds/podcast, etc.? have you got some tea (for soothing) or caffeinated drinks (for energising)?

we're here for you 💙

[Captain24]

Mum and dad are so judgemental too @rav3n 

Ive had a red bull and I have that solfeggio music on when I’m driving. It’s not the safest driving the way I’m feeling but it has to be done. 

Im just about to jump in the car. 

I’ll be around tomorrow though. 

[rav3n]

hope the red bull and solfeggio music helps, got my fingers crossed that the drive will be okay for you @Captain24 i'll catch you tomorrow morning, take care 💙

[AuntGlow]

That's okay! You've reached out here, which I think is really positive. @Captain24 

I hope work is manageable tonight, you can always send us a message if things are feeling overwhelming - you're never alone whilst you have us in your pocket. ✨💛

[tyme]

Hi @Captain24 ! Cold? Are you at work?

[Captain24]

I got to work ok. @rav3n. It was a really long hard night with darkening thoughts. I even got teary. I nearly gave in and went home but I didn’t. 

I almost hit a massive too on my way home. Stupid animals. I hate them. 

Instead of going to bed I’m washing my oodie onesie and warming pyjamas. I should have washed my work clothes instead but no. I’m hoping they dry and I can put them in tonight to feel cosy? It’s worth a try. 

I’m so stupid. I should prioritise sleep. But I’m too wired. It’s ridiculous how stupid I am.