I can’t cope

[tyme]

I didn't know there were associated side effects @Captain24 ...

When I've droped in the past, I didn't feel any side effects.

I've been thinking about dropping altogether. I'll ask my doc about it in the future...

[Captain24]

She did warn me but I didn’t think it’d happen so soon. I’m almost at half the original dose. @tyme I’m at the stage that I don’t want to come off it anymore. But I know that I have too.

Im glad it didn’t happen to you. It’s 9 stages of hell. One thing.. I have no appetite so I don’t have the munchies! I guess no munchies is a positive. 

I’ll warn anyone coming off it to be careful. 

Im in a group on facebook and someone is having similar issues but others had no problem and dropped it quicker. The person that’s having trouble had to slow down the reduction. 

[tyme]

I never thought this would happen. I'm going to have a look into it. Thanks for the heads up @Captain24 

[Captain24]

Thanks for supporting me @tyme 

Have a good night

[tyme]

Heya @Captain24  . How're you?

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

I just got home from work. 

Im not great but a lot better than yesterday! This is why I think it’s withdrawal

How are you? 

[tyme]

Wow... I didn't realise @Captain24 !

I really hope things improve. It's amazing what meds, hormones, lack of sleep can do to our bodies and really send us off the rails a bit...

Thank you for your post yesterday where you shared that you were really trying. I really appreciated you letting us know that you were doing whatever you could to stay on top of things.

How's Pix and Jett today? Has Pix been on your bed since?

[Captain24]

After talking to my psych yesterday she gave me things to try and reminded me of the beyond now app. Which is why I was trying. @tyme. I didn’t want you to think I wasn’t. 

We’ll see what this week brings when I don’t change it. I have an appointment with my psych Tuesday afternoon before I go to work. She really wants to monitor me and monitor the disassociation. It’s really bad.

I have a question… do you disassociate? 

Pix and Jett are good. They get so excited when I get home. I just had a shower and both had to lick the water drops off my legs! 

Pix hasn’t been back up yet. When I’m around she expects me to pick her up but I push her up the stairs. 

[tyme]

Wow... I just read up on the meds, and I didn't realise the withdrawals are that common. I thought my anti-d was the difficult one to get off...

I think I'll still see my doc about it - but not right now. Every thing is just going well now so I don't want to rock the boat. I'll wait until I'm SUPER well before I play around with changing anything.

Thanks for letting me know about these side effects though. It's the first I've heard for these meds.

Hahaha @Captain24 , Your babies love you so much. So are they at home when you are at work? I thought your parents look after them? Or do they drop them off just before you get home? It's good they love you so much. And they will never stop loving you.. kids grow up and they stop getting excited when they see you... but dogs? never!

So funny that you push Pix up the stairs. Can you just leave her on the floor, get in bed then call her up? Or give her a toy at the top to see if she'll get it?

Actually, what do the stairs look like? Are they too steep for her?

Anyway, so good to see that today is a bit better for you.

[Captain24]

Just be careful is all I can say @tyme. I still have a long way to go and I’m not sure how I’m going to do it! 

Mum drops the dogs home just before I get home from work. 

They do love me. They get so excited even if I’ve just gone for a little while. Jett really misses me when I’m on nightshift as I only see them for an hour. I’m not sure how he is going to cope in August! 

Nah.. Pix is a stubborn little shit. She will just whinge at me until I put her up. The stairs are step but it’s easier to get up them than down them. She just demands attention! 

I’ve tried so hard to not disassociate, I need to talk to my psych more about it. I sound a bit better don’t I? Hopefully we can work together to sort this out. Plus I think I need to make an appointment with the Pdoc. If we figure out that it is withdrawals. Or come up with a plan to keep me safe and not lose days at a time. That’s getting really concerning. I tried so hard today to keep telling myself where I was and what I was doing. 

I was whinging to mum that the new place we have to go to to start work doesn’t have phone service. I said that meant I couldn’t order takeaway for dinner tomorrow night. Mum said I ruined the surprise as she is getting it for me!