Don’t want to accept the pain

[Jynx]

Aww hun @creative_writer 

Hugs to you, hope you've been super gentle with yourself this arvo. 

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@creative_writer wrote:
Does anyone know alternative to meds for ADHD. Not being able to get much done exacerbates my anxiety and bipolar disorder. Maybe being a functional person will help my mental health. I’m trying matcha and saffron. I’ve decided to increase my saffron intake a bit, not sure if it’ll help. I just hope it will, or my brain will be tempted to resorting to an unhelpful way

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I think it depends entirely on which symptoms you're trying to manage. Cos obvs the meds don't 'fix' everything, they help with focus and attention and regulation... I guess do you know what you're needing the most support with? 

Focus for me is about letting myself fidget as needed, a sweet lil bev to sip, and plenty of breaks. Attention and focus are also helped by keeping regular routine. Cos like, if I am always doing something at a particular time, it's way easier to focus on it cos my body knows that like for e.g. 'This is workout time' or 'this is reading time'. Regulation you're pretty good at I think, that's all regular meals and attending to basic needs and regular exercise and stuff. There's always heaps of overlap too ofc... life doesn't like simplicity! 

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer ,

What's caused this spiral? Sitting here listening @creative_writer 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx ADHD and bipolar seem to be feeding off each other lately. Bipolar has flared up, which ultimately worsens ADHD symptoms and the flare up in ADHD makes me frustrated and doesn’t help bipolar. I am forgetful because my mind is not here. I am struggling to concentrate and my attention keeps diverting to non-relevant stuff. It’s a perfect storm. I need help with concentration, organisation and motivation. I don’t feel like doing anything despite having lots of nervous energy. Like I could clean the whole house, but I stay stuck in paralysis.

The heaviness in my body keeps coming in, it starts slowly and then, bam, I’m having a full blown body flashback. Then my mind goes places, it wants to make impulsive decisions

[creative_writer]

@tyme not sure. Bipolar has been out of control, I’ve been agitated but also depressed, it’s a bad combination. I know I should probably take PRN because SI is kicking in. On top of bipolar the body flashback and inability to complete tasks isn’t helping

[Jynx]

@creative_writer do you have a regular/firm routine at the moment? 

I totally know the 'stuck' feeling hey. Hmm.... Oh, have you seen these videos by How to ADHD? They are helpful for navigating the 'wall' 

Part 1

Part 2

Maybe it's about doing something interveney when that heaviness starts? It's a tricky one for sure hun. 🫂

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I don’t have enough of a routine. I find it hard to get out of bed, I get intrusive memories in the morning and then I end up on my phone scrolling.

Maybe it’ll help to watch those videos, it can be hard to navigate the day during ADHd paralysis.

Flashbacks are tricky. Maybe it’ll get easier with time. But my body demands for the pain to be felt

[Jynx]

@creative_writer potentially something you could work towards then, building a routine. What do you think? 

Aye, and we can only do a bit at a time hey. Finding that balance between allowing space for the feelings and not letting ourselves spiral too hard can be tricky. 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I’ve been struggling with routine, I need to somehow get past the paralysis.

My emotions have been running high, it’s been feeling too much. I’m struggling to cope with intensity, but I know I need to find a way to move through it

[Jynx]

Just take it super slow @creative_writer no need to have the perfect routine ready to go from ground up. Maybe just have a think about like, just one thing you could introduce to your daily rituals that you wish you were doing more of!

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I sure do hope it’s easier tomorrow. I’ve tried to concentrate today, but lack of it frustrated me so I didn’t get far. It’s awful when you’re usually able to manage a task and then you’re not able to even manage that.

I’m just tired of life